You died cold and alone for no reason
in a senseless act of whatever
over something small and pointless
and now you're gone forever
there's nothing i can do or could do
you're still gone and nothing matters
nothing matters to me anymore
we still don't know why so many years later
and I don't care, why would I?
Nothing can bring you back as much as my
sometimes naive day dreaming wishful mind
can muster up the feelings of how I miss you
I miss you, I miss you, I miss you
Please come back to me in my dreams if nothing else
I just want to say goodbye and I'm sorry
I know I'm not the man you knew I could be
And it kills me that I feel like I've failed
in accomplishing what you weren't allowed
or anything at all or leave my mark
because you're gone and one day I'll find you
maybe sooner than later, I don't know
I'm not afraid of dying but I fear the pain
that you went through even though they lied to me and
told me you were gone in an instant to make us all feel better
I just hope you're at peace now my brother
I wish I told you how much I loved you but I hope you knew
and I hope you still do know
Nothing will change that even though I find myself thinking about you less and less
as the days go by and it's not by design
but I'm tired and struggling to fight on my own
and sometimes I wish it was me instead
because you had so much to offer, and I'm nothing at all